Yep, No Surprise...........chuckle

Mother's Day came and went.  Out of five children, the four-year old gave me a card and a hug.  Really?  OK.  That hurts and out of hurt comes being pissed off.  No surprise, chuckle........ha ha ha ha ha..................I'm pissed off.  Ha ha Ha Ha Ha

 

I JUST saw my oldest three children two weeks before Mother's Day at my oldest's wedding.  I got hugs and smiles and I love you's.  Then............nothing.  Oh, no.  No.  If you don't mean it, don't do it.  Don't invite me, don't smile, don't dance with me, hug me, tell me "I love you."  Don't, eye roll, be a hippocrate.  ugh.  shudder.

 

If you DID mean it.............hell...............buy a fucking card or make a free phone call or text. I did NOT raise them to be so ambiguous.  Huh-uh.   You either are or you aren't.  You don't have to justify or quantify whatever you choose, just BE it, LIVE it.  Don't lie about it, hide it or deny it.  There's a price for all of it, good or bad, we pay it.  All of us.  We do it gladly or change.  EYE ROLL, duh.

 

Make a choice and stand by it.  No one ever said it would be easy, Lord knows they all saw me taking a stand against all odds, often.  They've seen me fight, seen me have to apologize..............I didn't hide a thing and the stories are still told by their father.  eye roll

 

Now, I'm irritated.  I want to say something to each of them.  What is mine to lose?  Oh, gosh, they won't talk to me?  Really?  They didn't for years.  I REFUSE to NOT be me, what sort of example is that to set?

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Comments (9)

  1. GoldenPig2012

    I held out. I did. Then………….I asked my son if he had just mailed the Mother’s Day card.

    May 17, 2017
    1. GoldenPig2012

      Yes. Yes I’m a desperate mother. I’m human. I was taught to SPEAK about what I feel. Good, bad or indifferent, I was taught to speak. I spoke. Worst case scenario: the status quo continues. eye roll

      May 17, 2017
  2. mister-sandman

    I don’t celebrate Mother’s Day. My mom knows I don’t. I don’t acknowledge it or get her a gift because I don’t need a holiday to remind me to love my mother. The rest of the family thinks it’s disrespectful, but I’ve never cared what they thought. My sister and I wait until my mom’s birthday next month and spoil her. Mom has no complaints.

    May 17, 2017
    1. GoldenPig2012

      OK. You and your mom know, fuck the rest of them and what they do or do not think about it. Makes sense to me. This is not that. Deep breath, this is not that.

      May 17, 2017
  3. noahbody

    They acknowledge you then ignore. How ambiguous can they get? I don’t blame you for being upset.

    May 17, 2017
    1. GoldenPig2012

      I’ll get over it. I mostly am, now. They’re…………………who they are, I guess. Sigh.

      May 18, 2017
      1. noahbody

        good. I am glad you are over it

        May 18, 2017
        1. GoldenPig2012

          I always have, so far.

          May 21, 2017
          1. noahbody

            Good for you.

            May 21, 2017