I, We, Let it Go

My other half and I said things, yesterday morning, that hurt each other.  We took parts from our past and threw it at each other, a past where we did not know each other.  That was unfair, it accomplished nothing but hurting one another, not a goal of either of ours.  But, we did it, we're human.  Humans DO that, make mistakes, hit below the belt, try to take another down as we feel ourselves sinking.  We KNEW that and, sad smile, did it anyway.  Dumbasses, yeah, we were, hell.............are.

 

But, at the end of that day, we chose to forgive, to let go of that.  Oh, it's in our minds, you can't unring a bell, but...........we don't have to heed the call of that bell.  We can turn our backs on it and walk away until it's just the echo of the ringing, then walk further. 

 

I'm sorry I posted this about me and my life.  I'm sorry I did and said this in my life.  But, I'm human, I screw up, ha ha ha ha.........gosh.............it seems like I do that more often than most.  When we love someone, we give them our soft underbelly, our past, our secrets, our worst moments to hold and know.  We count on the love to protect ourselves from being ripped open and left bleeding to death.  Yesterday, each of us took a swipe at that.  We are not bleeding to death, we................both, deep breath, allow that to................be part of our life together.  Not a pretty part, not the best part, but...............it is part of it. 

 

We won't talk about it, we don't have to, we know what we did.  We move on from here.  It ain't rocket science.  Move on or die in it, pretty simple.  Thanks for listening and I'm sorry I put it here.

 

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Comments (8)

  1. Bettymom

    I don’t suppose there’s a couple on earth who’ve spent more than an hour together that hasn’t done just what you did. Hubby and I have. Several times, I lay in bed at night and plotted how to leave my marriage. But I’m still here and so is he! We’ve gotten kinder in our old age.

    June 27, 2017
    1. GoldenPig2012

      Thank you for that, REALLY, thank you. I love him, he loves me, but…………………..well, you understand.

      June 28, 2017
      1. Bettymom

        You’re welcome, and yes, I do understand.

        June 29, 2017
  2. formerlyme

    Bravo to you and your man, Golden, that you can move past this. It’s a lesson learned, and you have good insight into it. I have great hope for you two lasting as a couple for the long term.

    June 27, 2017
    1. GoldenPig2012

      Thanks, as usual, it IS a lesson learned the hard way. I tend to do that in life and so does he. grin.

      I think we’ll last because we’re getting old and we’re too damned tired to do this again. ha ha ha ha

      June 28, 2017
      1. formerlyme

        True enough!

        June 28, 2017
  3. Munkyman

    He opened the door, & you kicked it… you tend to escalate when challenged, that’s your “Cross.” You know it & you work on it as it might suit you, that’s all any of us do… no matter how we might dress our crosses up.

    June 28, 2017
    1. GoldenPig2012

      Sure, that’s most likely true about me and others.

      June 28, 2017